HERE IS A SONG MY SON AND I WROTE EXTEMPORANEOUSLY…AND WITHOUT INTERRUPTION…HIS FINGERS ALMOST FEEL OFF..WHEN HE FINISHED…AND I WAS CRYING…WE BOTH WERE DEEPLY MOVED BY THE SHOOTINGS IN COLORADO DURING THE LAST DECADE…OR MORE.

"BEAUTIFUL SUFFERING"  AM MEMORIAL VIDEO

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WRITTEN BY MY SON AND i ON HEARING OF THE FIRST SHOOTING IN COLORADO.

i REPOST IT AGAIN WITH NEW PICTURES AND PRAYERS FOR AURORA COLORADO SHOOTING OF JULY 20, 2012.

What is happening to our youth? I blame no one…and yet I blame everyone.

I blame myself for not still teaching at juvenile hall…i blame myself for not teaching Sunday school as much as i should…I blame the health institutions and insurance companies..for cutting off the financial support to the mentally ill, i blame the government for cutting back on high school phychotherapists..who are the eyes and ears for the parents of emotionally troubled youth. I blame parents for not dialoging their kids enough…for not getting to know and understand their adolescents and teens. I blame them for giving up on their kids and thinking they are 13 or fourteen now and now they are done..i blame them for dumping so much on the grandparents for the raising of their kids..and turning around and not supporting them and their "old fashiioned ideas." i blame parents for enabling their kids..for buying them violent bloody video games…i blame them for not monitoring the tv and their kids friendships and they places they hang out.  I blame them for spoiling their kids based on the old addage that iam going to give them everything i never had…

Gosh who ever said that was a good idea…

Instead parents give them what you should have had…like more of a work ethic…to get used to getting their hands dirty in the garden…on repairing the car…on fixing things around the house…about taking out the trash and keeping their room clean..for darn sake! 

Don't get me started…i love you guys..but WAKE UP AND FACE TO FACE YOUR CHILD AND ASK…WITHOUT CONTROLLING CONVERSATION…REALLY HONEY….HOW ARE YOU…? AND JUST LISTEN FOR AN HOUR WITHOUT JUDGEMENT OR CRITICISM.

IF YOU CAN'T THEN WE ARE ALL RUINED…THIS TYPE OF VIOLENCE WILL INCREASE..AND FOR GOODNESS SAKE SHOW THEM REAL MOVIES…WITH REAL CIRCUMSTANCES…WATCH THE FILM FESTIVAL AWARDED MOVIES..WITH THEM AND OLD MOVIES WITH MORALS..AND BOOKS WITH INTEGRITY AND GOODNESS AND MORAL FIBRE…

i LOVE YOU…

IAM PRAYING THAT THIS CHILD THAT GREW UP TO BE A MURDER… WILL BE A POSTERBOY FOR TODAYS GENERATION'S DIRECTION…LIVING A LIFE OF FANTASY..THAT IF YOU SHOOT SOMEONE ON A VIDEO…THEY DON'T REALLY DIE…CAUSE AFTER ALL PEOPLE ARE NOT REAL THEY RE ONLY IN YOUR MIND.AND ITS THERE THAT THE KIDS FEEL IN CONTROL! BUT WHAT KIND OF CONTROL? A DARK AND SINISTER KIND…A KIND OF BEAST WITH ABSOLUTE POWER AND ABSOLUTELY NO LOVE AND HUMAN KINDNESS.

LOVE,

MAMAMIALOVE